breaking

breaking

im sitting on my deck, sipping tea, listening to the birds sing and the children make a soup of some kind in the sandbox and reflecting on yesterday. 
yesterday was overwhelmingly hard. I was certain my kids were trying to end me. I didn’t bend, I broke. I gave up and crawled into my bed and cried and waited for the day to end. 
and when I walked through the yard last night after the children went to bed and saw that nearly all the blossoms were on the ground I reminded myself gently, the meaning of the Cherry Blossom; that, life is overwhelmingly beautiful, but it’s also overwhelmingly short. 
The hardships too. They’re moments in time and then they pass. And the feeling that hardships last longer than happiness is simply our perspective of it. And your perspective is a choice you make. 
I woke up this morning and set the intention of having ‘the best day ever.’ I’m hoping your day is too. 

sat nam

easy snacking

easy snacking

One of the simplest ways I stay healthy is my one and only snacking rule; 

Replace all snacks with fruits, vegetables, or nuts. 

That’s right, Chips, granola bars (even the “healthy” looking ones) and “snacky” like foods are treats, not snacks. These are a once a week food, not a one or twice a day food. 

An easy way to stick to this rule is by prepping simple healthy snacks ahead of time. Which is essentially, pre washing your fruit, cutting your produce, and pre-making dips like hummus and guacamole. Then all you have to do is open the fridge and voila- there it is. 

 It’s also helpful with kids, because I have the same rule for my children. If they want a snack, they can have a fruit, a vegetable, or some nuts. I refuse to give them snacks all damn day too- why? Because then they actually eat their meals and not live off of crackers and granola bars. 

 They also ask for less snacks because I’m not always shoving them tasty bags of sugar and crunchies their way. They genuinely come to me when they’re hungry, and ask for nuts and dates, or some berries. Which is awesome. Because it also means they’re actually hungry at dinner. And when you’re hungry, you’re more likely to try new things, and everything tastes good. So hooray for less battles at the dinner table. 
Some of my favourite preps are, 

•Fruit salad

•Smoothie bowl

•Vegan yogurt topped with hemp hearts and berries

•Almonds, cashews, dates trail mix, with peanut butter topped rice cakes

•Hummus and veggies (like carrots, cucumber, celery and peppers) 
I just made a delicious hummus recipe for today, sans tahini as I was out. I don’t like to buy hummus because of all the preservatives..and it’s honestly so easy to make, why wouldn’t you? 

Easy Hummus 

•1 can of chickpeas

•squeeze of fresh lemon juice 

•2 garlic cloves

•dash of salt 

•1tsp of cumin

•2 TBSP of water if needed 

•Blend until smooth. Taste and adjust seasonings if you need to. 

•top with smoked paprika

•EAT! 

 

What are your favourite snacks to make and most of all EAT? 

Mala meditation 

Mala meditation 

lately, I’ve been in a “low vibe state.” And what I mean by that is, we are all beings made of light and energy, and therefore vibrate at certain frequencies. Everything does. And you can change your vibration according to how you live, and your thoughts. The higher the vibration, the better, the more attuned you are. 
You can get an idea of your vibration by asking, “how do I feel?” 
Do you feel light, energetic, and assured? Or do you feel scattered, maybe depressed, or feel lost? 
and lately, I’ve been feeling not myself. Lethargic. Irritable. A bit apathetic. And my inner world is matching my outer world. I keep accidentally hurting myself and dropping things and those around me are kind of feeling and doing the same. And it’s a total bummer! But your vibe attracts your tribe…
So, how do you fix it? 
Well for me, I fully believe that in order to change you have to be in a spiritually aligned place. Meaning, Center yourself, connect back in with Spirit, release what’s blocking you, and begin again. My favourite way to do this is with mantra meditation using a Mala. 
Be seated in easy pose, hold your Mala in thumb and first finger on bead number one. Then recite your mantra, and move to the next bead. It’s the Buddhist form of a rosary basically. 
My favourite mantras are, 

•sat nam (truth identified) 

•so ham (I am (one with the universe)) and of course 

•Ohm (which was said to be the first sound at the beginning of the universe and unblocks the throat chakra.)
You can say these in your head, or aloud. Or you can make your own depending on what you need. 
•I am enough. 

•I am beautiful. 

•I am strong. 

•I am a being of love and light. 
It’s your practice. Choose what works for you. And any amount of time is beneficial. Start with one minute and work your way up to 11. And if you really don’t want to do it, then you should do it twice. I promise you’ll feel better. 
Sat nam🙏🏼❤✨ 

Aries

Aries

n e w•m o o n ♈️I had the honour of holding space for 11 other women a few days ago in a new moon ceremony. It was a beautiful reminder that, everyone has a story that could break your heart wide open, and another reminder of how much compassion I have sitting just inside my heart, that’s ready and waiting to be called upon. I couldn’t believe how open my heart was when we finished 

And it’s inspired me to share this with you✨
tonight is the new moon in Aries

as always, new moons are a beautiful time to welcome new thoughts and new beginnings. 

Perhaps you’ve read before, that 2017 is a “1” year, and 2016 was a “9” year; meaning 2016 was the year of letting go and the “death” of some concepts in your life, while 2017 is the year of new beginnings. 

But if you’re like me, you may have found Jan-March to be a lot like last year
Don’t worry. You’re not crazy. 

Jan-march was mostly a time to finish tying up the loose ends of 2016. But now, with the New Moon in Aries we welcome this new “1” year Energy, as it is the first sign in the astrological calendar and it’s fiery!

It’s heard you. It’s ready to create with you, support you and encourage you with your new idea-baby. 
I encourage you to take some time tonight. Light a candle. Close your eyes. Sit quietly for a few moments. And envision exactly what you want your life or business to become. Make a safe space in your mind for your ideas to bloom. No judgement. The sky is the limit, its YOUR vision! And then tuck the sides of your vision up, and fold it back away into your minds eye. Then keep coming back to this safe space you’ve created. Nurture your idea-baby, as you would a child, and you might be surprised to see actions you can take that allows it to come into fruition. 

From my heart to yours, 

Sat nam 

(Photo from google images. Pls message for credit) 

Eostre

Eostre

s p r i n g • e o s t r e
the time when light and dark are balanced. it’s a time to look around yourself and identify where there is imbalance in your life; whether in health, attitude, job, or hobby. 

spring is a time to put winter behind you, and celebrate the abundance in your life and all that is abundant around you. the patches of wildflowers, crocuses, and budding trees. birds laying eggs and other creatures waking up from a long nap. 

It is a time to rid yourself of clutter, both physically and energetically. It’s a time to begin again, to engage in action, and begin working towards all you dreamed up during the winter. 

So ask yourself, 

What have you outgrown? What do you wish to see blossom? 

Then put one foot in front of the other. One tiny action, after the other, 

And like a pebble in a pond, 

Make a wave~
and so it is,
Sat nam 

resolutions

resolutions

About this time nearly seven years ago I found myself in the office of a surgeon, discussing an upcoming day surgery to take care of an embarrassing issue; stemming from years of eating poorly, dysfunctional digestion and constipation. I’ll save you the TMI, don’t worry. Anyway, I was nervous, embarrassed, but also determined to not have to deal with this again, and was in full prevention mode.

“So, obviously I don’t ever want to deal with this again, so should I be doing some kind of cleanse or detox periodically to clean out my gut?” I asked. 

The Lemonade Diet/Maple Syrup cleanse or whatever was all the rage at this time. I also was working at Shoppers Drug Mart and part of my job was to merchandise the shelves, finding expired products, and putting new product on the shelves. My favourite was the Vitamin section because I liked reading the backs of all the medicines to see what was really in them. It was kind of like one long bathroom break when you forgot reading material, in a time before smart phones. It got me through some rough shifts. Anyway. Herbal Cleanses and Chili detoxes lined the shelves (lets face it, still do) and I was genuinely interested as well as enticed to try them.

The surgeon breathed out deeply running his hand over his cheek. He folded his hands on his desk and looked directly at me.

What he told me was the most important piece of information I think I have ever received from anyone, let alone someone in the medical field, and one that has changed my life forever.

“Don’t bother with the detoxes, the cleanses….its all just,” he waved his hand in the air. “You don’t need pills. You need food.” he cleared his throat. “The only thing you need to do is to Eat from the Earth. You do that, and all of your digestive problems will disappear. Eat as close to the Earth as possible.”

I sat there staring at him, both a bit surprised but mostly confused. Did he just prescribe me plants? A surgeon?

I shook his hand, thanked him and left. I also put the idea of pills to bed.

I went home and began looking at all the things I ate. Everything I merchandised at work I read the back before I put it on the shelf. Was this from the Earth? How did this product become this? How much did it have to go through and change in order to be in this form? What the hell is high-fructose-corn-syrup? Why was there dye in this? How was that even a necessary ingredient? Is dye bad for you? What the hell is this? What the hell is that? 

Google became my friend.

His advice also dawned on me more and more.

Calories no longer mattered to me anymore. What mattered was how long the ingredients list was. I was both terrified and angry at the food in my cupboard, the food that was available in stores that bragged to be a HEALTH PRODUCT or LOW IN FAT, that in all honesty belonged in the chip aisle. And slowly, over the next few weeks it all disappeared or was thrown away and I began asking myself, can I make this myself?

Turns out, yeah, a lot of stuff you can buy in the store is very easily and might I add cheaply made at home. Things like broth and crackers and yogurt. Things that from a store are laced with toxins, dyes, sugar and aspartame.

The snacks foods I ate, such as chocolate covered rice cakes (lets be honest its basically sugared cardboard) for a “Low cal treat” slim fast/whey protein shakes, and Fibre One bars left my cupboards. I ate apples, nuts, or vegetables for snacks instead. Ants on a log, cinnamon covered apples, trail mix and homemade granola became my staple. And the weird thing? The ten pounds I had enticed with slim fast for a time that never budged just melted off me. Despite eating loads more than I had been. It didn’t really matter the amount I ate, it matter what I ate.

Its been a seven year journey for me, but I feel I am finally where I wish to be with how I eat. I’m sure it will evolve over time too, everything does, but my diet is a far cry from how I used to eat.

So as the New Year looms and the dreaded resolutions and shitty pills, commercials and health vultures come out to play, I’d like you to maybe pause for a moment. Pause and ask yourself, Is this from the Earth? 

I can promise you, and assure you, that what you need is not a gym membership, or a shake, whey protein, or an herbacleanse. You need a prescription for plants, a pair of boots and the willingness to see whats in your backyard. Be in nature. Its much more exciting that plugging away on a treadmill in a room that smells like onions and probably full of coughed on doorknobs.

And if you don’t believe me, Dear Reader, then ask my surgeon. Or my intestines, which will give you the thumbs up.

Happy New Year and much love.

sat nam

M

2017

2017

the “freaky lettuce” has been put to good use.

the other day I was drinking tea on the sofa under the Christmas tree and thought, “wow, the new year is just around the corner. I wonder what my resolution should be this year…” and then I wondered what mine was last year. I thought I knew, but could be wrong so I found my old journal and started reading.

As I read those pages I realized for probably the first time in my life I actually achieved my New Years resolution. Sure, it took me almost all year to get there, but it’s not about how long it takes- it’s about willingness. It’s about trying again.

In the last few months of 2016, I’ve gone sugar free. I noticed since summer I’ve become a way better mother. Moving slower, more intentional, more gentle. My daily practice, while it still needs work, is certainly improving every day.

So I sat back and had a moment of gratitude. A moment of thanks, just to myself. And while my goal of getting rid of my acne once in for all-FOREVER- is still on the to do list I know that achievement is also, just around the corner.

So here’s a sneak peak at my 2017 resolution, to use my blender or juicer once a day for some 🌱💚

What is your resolution for this year??

hiatus

hiatus

Nearly two months since I have written here in this space. Two months since I’ve written really anything at all. What happened? I’ll be honest as always, I’m really not sure.

As the shift from summer to fall began I felt myself…sinking. It was strange. I wasn’t depressed per say, but I didn’t feel myself. I felt entirely melancholy for a reasons I didn’t know. So I took it as a sign to spend a little more time inward and to myself.

Social media, my blog, visits and playgroups have been on the back burner the past few months. And with this hiatus has come another change for me. I always said I would have another shift as I near my 25th birthday, despite feeling like the last one never ended; and I can confirm that to be true.

In the past two months nothing has changed yet everything has. I see the world differently again. I eat differently, adopting my vegan diet again, banishing gluten and sugar without struggle, something I tried to do for over a year with near constant failure. Yet this time, it happened with ease. I’ve paired down my possessions (again) cultivating a more minimalist lifestyle. Instead, focusing on quality, and what I really need instead of just spending and consuming. I am also focusing on the environment more. Planting more trees. Choosing items with less packaging. Homemaking beauty supplies and remedies. Buying in bulk instead of purchasing bagged items. Recycling more plastic. Picking up more trash. Using less water. Turning off lights and unplugging televisions and other electronics. Spending more time walking instead of driving. I’m choosing healthier options when it comes to my home, my clothes, my dish ware, my food.

Social media means less to me. I feel like I see it for what it really is. Instead, while I am technically doing less, I am living more intentionally. Which is hard in a world where everything is going a mile a minute. It is hard being this way in this world too, I struggle to see where I fit in. Part of the reason I quit eating vegan was the flak I caught from everyone. I was tired of having to explain myself and deal with people berating me for trying to eat and be healthy and do something good for animals and the environment. The other part was, I was afraid it was contributing to my depression, which was entirely and utterly false. So adding gluten and sugar free to the mix, albeit mostly temporary (I plan to indulge in the future after my treatment protocol is finished, but otherwise stay gluten and sugar free) has certainly created riffs, people chuckling, and the throwing of the word “hipster” around. But I digress.

It has been a strange yet imperative time for me. I have continued to remind myself that it will pass eventually, that with all evolution typically comes discomfort. To embrace the seasons of letting go and change; because with every death comes the birth of something else and so often something far greater than we could ever imagine.

sat nam

 

M

  • bare coconut taboo
  • bare coconut taboo
  • bare coconut taboo
  • bare coconut taboo

bare coconut taboo

I have recently received a new product and I am dying to tell you all about it! It is called,

Bare Coconut Taboo Collection

It is a handmade product, designed and formulated by my friend Tiffany, fellow massage therapist and momma, right here in Canada! It is made with organic and raw ingredients and >1% preservatives (which is required when water is an ingredient)

My favourite part of these products is the care and love that has gone into making them. As a mom she wanted a product that was safe and free from chemicals and anything harmful for her sweet little girl. And thus started her journey into researching and creating what has become her new passion; Bare Coconut.

My second favourite part about these products is that they are infused with cannabis which has miraculous medicinal qualities. Cannabis can be used to treat a number of ailments and disorders, such a glaucoma, epilepsy and debilitating seizures, pain, autoimmune diseases, it is a respite from the side effects of chemotherapy, a treatment for PTSD and anxiety, and as more research is being done, a multitude of other things. I just love the thought of using such a powerful plant for healing!

I specifically ordered the Fresh For Her Deodorant, and the SOAK bath product; so I was surprised when I opened it up to see some testers of her other products and now I can tell you about them too.

You might be asking why natural products? It isn’t a new thing, using nature based beauty products or deodorants, but my reasoning is this; Conventional store purchased products contain a shit load of chemicals, and our skin is our biggest organ. Its purpose is to protect and detoxify and we are inhibiting its natural function by slathering ourselves with toxins. This is directly affecting our health, our lifespan and quality of life.

And why a natural deodorant? This is due to the level of toxins, parabens and phthalates that are in conventional deodorants. The aluminum levels are harmful to our long term health. These things can cause different types of cancer, have been linked to Alzheimer’s and get this, regular deodorant can actually make you stink more. The formula actually alters the bacteria and makes the smell worse than if you skipped it altogether or used a natural formula that still allows your to sweat.

So for the Deodorant, she sent me her newest formula and her original formula which is no longer available. The biggest difference that I can see off the hop is the new formula, (FRESH for Her) is darker in colour. It has a slightly different scent than the original, but I really like both. The FRESH version has lavender, rosemary, sage, thyme and peppermint, giving an earthy yet surprisingly fresh scent.   I found both were equally effective in preventing my STANK but the FRESH version did leave dark marks on light clothing, so I made sure to wear it with tanks or dark wash shirts only.

She notified me she is reformulating FRESH so the staining will no longer be an issue. I would re-purchase regardless. My experience with the product has been positive. I do reapply the deodorant if I have been busy in the hot sun or if I work out, but I would with the old fashioned stuff too so this is nothing new. I found it took a few days to get my body used to it, as if I had to detox the old stuff first before it worked to its full capacity. However, I don’t think this took even a week.

The other product I ordered was SOAK. The only downside is it made a mess in the tub and I would recommend showering after (its earthy brown and I have white towels) but I couldn’t believe how soft my skin was after my bath. Unreal. It has active cannabis and warns you could feel euphoric, but I did not feel “high.” I equate it to a lavender infused bath on steroids. I felt very very relaxed, ready for bed, but not foggy, drowsy or extremely happy. This is also being reformulated into bath bombs and I can’t wait. I saw a teaser pic and they look super rad!

She kindly sent me some testers and I have been using them like crazy. First she sent me MAGIK which has become like Frank’s Red Hot, I literally put that shit on everything. Cut? MAGIK. Bruise? MAGIK. Oh, you have a mosquito bite? MAGIK. Boyfriend broke your heart? MAGIK. It smells great, works amazing, and I feel is a necessity for any first aid kit.

My second favourite is her HEAT tester, which is beneficial for autoimmune flare ups, arthritis or pain. You can smell the ginger, cayenne and black peppers, juniper and it has that slight yellow colour from the turmeric. With my husband being a runner and weight lifter, I feel as if this will become his best friend. Also, as a massage therapist I would also use this for nearly all my clients!

Aside from these formulas Tiffany has other products ranging from beard conditioner, sun screen, massage oils, intimate lubricants, men’s deodorant, and a multitude of other salves and creams.

Click the link HERE to check out her shop.

Wishing you all good health and wellness,

sat nam
M

 

photos courtesy of Bare Coconut Taboo-

*this post is not sponsored, it is a reflection of my own opinion and experience.

1st class

1st class

I taught my very first official meditation class last night to a beautiful group of souls. I wasn’t nervous going in to it but as soon as I started I felt a little wisp of doubt well up inside me.

I finished the first meditation and journaled my experience, finishing with, “I can do this, I was meant for this, and this is my calling. Just keep going!”

Before beginning the next meditation I quickly pulled a card and this was what came up. A little reminder that I’m being supported and that my dreams are becoming a reality, I just need to be patient.

I can only giggle to myself because it never fails when I pull a card, to get exactly what I need to hear. I’ve been told my Archangel is Jophiel and she delivered right when I needed it. And every time I pull cards for myself I always get the same answer.

Just. keep. going.

Be Patient.

And as we settled into the next meditation I felt myself grow calm and comfortable and was able to smoothly finish the rest of the class.

I felt supported. I felt connected. And I couldn’t help but feel as if this was just the beginning to something really fun, beautiful, and always, transformational.

Sat nam

M